Because a week ago Nat coughed up blood. A trip to the doctor gave a diagnosis of a severe sinus infection. But I know that--if we were older-- it would be lung cancer.
Because I want kids, and it's not fair to have them if I'm going to cut out early.
Because I have sunk hundreds into cigarettes that I could have saved for surgery.
Because, by smoking, I condone my partner's smoking. And I don't want her to die.